January has been somewhat of a crazy month. I guess I didn’t really realize just how crazy it was until I woke up with a cold sore starting to tingle on my upper lip this morning. I talked with a friend this afternoon and told her I didn’t really feel too stressed so I didn’t know where that came from (cold sores for me = stress). She then pointed out to me just how busy I’ve been and I was like, oh yeah, I guess I have been. Not crazy stress, but apparently enough to cause a cold sore stress. Schedule wise….with work and family stuff and other stuff I won’t have a weekend without anything planned until the middle of February. Creatively….working on this space, trying to pick up my camera more, trying to learn new photography stuff. Emotionally….just the normal stress of the holidays, getting back to routines, January in Minnesota blahs.
But in the midst of the apparent cold sore inducing stress, there have been January rays of sunshine. Like the 39 degree day before the sub-zero temps hit again. Like hearing someone say they are proud of you, hearing multiple people saying they are proud of you. Dinner at a quaint little restaurant with a dear friend. Snuggling after she woke up with bad dreams. Like baby smiles. And new socks. Like a thoughtful card in the mail. Him pointing at his penguin on the preschool wall. Catching up over coffee with a friend you haven’t seen in over a year. Like climbing into a new comfy bed. A date at Panera with my boys on Wednesday nights. Watching her “Just Dance”. His texts just asking how my day is going. Like watching Leo play with the neighbor kids in the backyard.
Like sitting on the couch and feeling the warmth of the sun through the blinds on the windows.
If only just listing little rays of sunshine would cure my stress induced cold sore….